Tergiang di telinga aku. Hati aku sesak. Macam mana aku nak teruskan persekolahan kalau begini permulaannya? Bagaimana? Baru hari kedua hati aku dah tak tahan. Dengan kehadiran mamat psiko tu. Can you just let go the past? Can ah?
Aku berjalan mundar mandir dalam bilik. Tiba-tiba kedengaran bunyi enjin kereta masuk ke dalam perkarangan rumah.
Papa's back.
Aku berlari-lari menuju ke hadapan. Mau bergegar rumah teres setingkat ni.
"Pa you're back!!"jerit aku. Aku membuka pintu dan grill.
Ayah aku keluar dari kereta dengan muka yang pelik. Watdehek anak aku ni.
"Assalamuaalaikum anak papa. What makes you look so happy ni? Selalunya dalam bilik terperap. Ni rajin menyambut ni," tanya ayah aku lalu menyambut tangan aku yang hendak bersalam.
Aku hanya tersengih. Aku berjalan masuk ke dalam rumah. Ayah aku mengunci pintu dan grill.
"Smells good. You cook? Amboi memang buang tebiat ni,"gurau ayah aku.
"Alahhhh sekali sekala. Meh masuk, dhuha dah siap hidang semua. Dipersilakan," kata aku lalu mengajak ayah aku ke ruang makan.
Dia atas meja terhidang ayam masak lemak, sayur goreng dan telur dadar. Wow lengkap ciri-ciri isteri mithali.
"Kecur air liur papa. Wait i want to wash my hand first,"kata ayah lalu berlalu ke dapur.
Selesai sahaja makan, aku terfikir nak bukak mulut ke.
"Pa ada dessert tau. Kejap let me clean this up," kata aku lalu mengemas meja manakala ayah aku masuk ke bilik mandi untuk membersihkan diri.
Aku membawa puding karamel ke hadapan televisyen. Aku melihat papa masih di dalam bilik. Aku menghidupkan televisyen dan menonton tv tanpa menyedari apa yang aku tontonkan. Get it? Ahhh
"Look delicious and i guess you got something to talk about?" Tanya ayah aku tiba-tiba. Hesh muncul tak ada salam betul.
"ya pandai pa teka. i got something to say. meh duduk meh,"kata aku lalu menepuk ruang sofa disebelah aku. Ayah aku melabuhkan punggungnya di sebelah aku lalu mencapai pinggan puding karamel dan menyuapkan sedikit caramel ke dalam mulutnya
"Too sweet.Less sugar please. okay now let your heart out," kata ayah aku sambil matanya mengadap televisyen.
Aku baru nak bukak mulut ayah aku sudah memotong line.
"Cerita wrestling jugak kamu tengok. anak dara zaman sekarang ni buat pa takut je. dulu zaman pa, eh zaman pa mana ada tv. okay keep going," kata ayah aku lalu mencapai remote tv di atas lantai.
Ayah aku ni cuba buat lawak kering ke apa.ah tapi betul jugak sejak bila aku switch channel wrestling ni. Ah gasak la. Tapi bila aku melihat Undertaker melipat John Cena, aku dah bayangkan aku melipat mamat tu. peh aku lipat dua tiga lapis, lompat dari jaring wrestling tu himpap dia pastu aku putar-putar dekat udara macam roda impian tu. Oh My aku punya imagination.
"Macam ni pa, you know two days in new school has been great but i just can't quite catch up with it. I mean i met somebody that make me wanted to cry all over again...." kata aku perlahan.
Ayah aku berhenti menyuap puding karamel ke dalam mulut dia dan memandang aku.
"Who is it? adakah Syed..."
"no need to say his name. i don't how he's end up there. he become the teacher. you know temporary teacher. music teacher i think, and then he's didn't do anything is just that i feel threatened. i felt insecure," kata aku cuba menahan sebak. i'm such a baby. nakk buat macam mana. im feeling traumatize..
Muka ayah aku tampak risau.
"Wow how does he end up being a teacher there? Gila dahsyat and besides Did he know you're there? one of the student??" tanya ayah aku.
Aku mengangguk. Yes please sort out this problem.
ayah aku menggosok kepalanya perlahan.. Botak lah katakan. rasa angin je lah.
"Okay i will call the principle. In the mean time, you stay home okay until i make sure your school environment is safe for you, get it?" tanya ayah aku.
Alamak call pengetua. nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo don't let anybody know about my past.
"How about i move to another school. easy peasy lemon squeezy," kata aku sambil tersenyum fake.
"No .i think that's the best school for you so far.beside yuran everything ditanggung. you don't want to burden me aren't you?" kata ayah aku sambil memegang kepala aku. mengusap perlahan.
Hesy ni aku rasa bersalah ni.
"Okaylah i will stay till the end. as long as i don't need to see his face, then that's alright," kata aku sambil tersenyum. Cuba untuk menutup kegusaran dalam hati. Hati aku berat sekali. Tapi nasib baik tak payah pergi sekolah esok. Woohoo.
"Okay go back to sleep. Make sure basuh gigi. Your caramel pudding is way sugar-loaded. Haih patutlah rambut papa tak pernah tumbuh,"kata ayah aku lalu berjalan menuju ke dapur.
Aku tersenyum sedikit.
Bye-bye Mr.Psycho!
"Too sweet.Less sugar please. okay now let your heart out," kata ayah aku sambil matanya mengadap televisyen.
Aku baru nak bukak mulut ayah aku sudah memotong line.
"Cerita wrestling jugak kamu tengok. anak dara zaman sekarang ni buat pa takut je. dulu zaman pa, eh zaman pa mana ada tv. okay keep going," kata ayah aku lalu mencapai remote tv di atas lantai.
Ayah aku ni cuba buat lawak kering ke apa.ah tapi betul jugak sejak bila aku switch channel wrestling ni. Ah gasak la. Tapi bila aku melihat Undertaker melipat John Cena, aku dah bayangkan aku melipat mamat tu. peh aku lipat dua tiga lapis, lompat dari jaring wrestling tu himpap dia pastu aku putar-putar dekat udara macam roda impian tu. Oh My aku punya imagination.
"Macam ni pa, you know two days in new school has been great but i just can't quite catch up with it. I mean i met somebody that make me wanted to cry all over again...." kata aku perlahan.
Ayah aku berhenti menyuap puding karamel ke dalam mulut dia dan memandang aku.
"Who is it? adakah Syed..."
"no need to say his name. i don't how he's end up there. he become the teacher. you know temporary teacher. music teacher i think, and then he's didn't do anything is just that i feel threatened. i felt insecure," kata aku cuba menahan sebak. i'm such a baby. nakk buat macam mana. im feeling traumatize..
Muka ayah aku tampak risau.
"Wow how does he end up being a teacher there? Gila dahsyat and besides Did he know you're there? one of the student??" tanya ayah aku.
Aku mengangguk. Yes please sort out this problem.
ayah aku menggosok kepalanya perlahan.. Botak lah katakan. rasa angin je lah.
"Okay i will call the principle. In the mean time, you stay home okay until i make sure your school environment is safe for you, get it?" tanya ayah aku.
Alamak call pengetua. nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo don't let anybody know about my past.
"How about i move to another school. easy peasy lemon squeezy," kata aku sambil tersenyum fake.
"No .i think that's the best school for you so far.beside yuran everything ditanggung. you don't want to burden me aren't you?" kata ayah aku sambil memegang kepala aku. mengusap perlahan.
Hesy ni aku rasa bersalah ni.
"Okaylah i will stay till the end. as long as i don't need to see his face, then that's alright," kata aku sambil tersenyum. Cuba untuk menutup kegusaran dalam hati. Hati aku berat sekali. Tapi nasib baik tak payah pergi sekolah esok. Woohoo.
"Okay go back to sleep. Make sure basuh gigi. Your caramel pudding is way sugar-loaded. Haih patutlah rambut papa tak pernah tumbuh,"kata ayah aku lalu berjalan menuju ke dapur.
Aku tersenyum sedikit.
Bye-bye Mr.Psycho!